What man actually needs is not a tensionless state but rather the striving and struggling for a worthwhile goal, a freely chosen task. What he needs is not the discharge of tension at any cost but the call of a potential meaning waiting to be fulfilled by him.
- Viktor Frankl, Man’s Search for Meaning
Stop the presses, Mango is now officially cleared for travel. Last week we got his EU pet passport, meaning that Mango and I can now travel within EU countries without him being quarantined. And that's a good thing, because I just booked a flight to London, and without this documentation, we would face a 4-month quarantine. Unfortunately, there are no blank pages for passport stamps for him to impress his canine friends with. Sad face.
Now that I have booked a flight to London as well as Airbnb accommodations, things just got real regarding my impending departure from Sweden. With less than two days until I officially need to leave country, I have been putting off travel plans until the last minute. Being someone that loves planning ahead, why did I wait until the last minute? Love, I tell you; love. To be honest, I was hoping the Swedish guy I had been seeing for this past month (who incidentally proclaimed his love for me last week, hah) would attempt to help me stay in the country. Unfortunately he didn't lift a finger, so I am packing up the pieces of my broken heart and heading to.... London. Focusing on a fresh start, as well as reading great self-improvement blogs, has helped me move on. And at this point, I am having trouble distinguishing whether I like the guy or just crave security and validation during this transient period of my life. Hmm.
In this journey, I have realized that when you put one foot in front of the other and move forward, things get better. Or at least you don't focus on otherwise paralyzing shortcomings and failures. I have realized that life without meaningful goals is empty, as is a life where one is constantly comparing themselves to others. I love love love the quote that I posted above. Yes, I have lived with serious depression for most of my life, but I am not going to let that stop me from following my heart and doing what makes me feel alive. At this point, I almost have no choice. Wherever one is (and in theory), one should be able to find meaning and create happiness.
And back to Mango. What a sweet little fellow that I have been blessed with for more than eleven years; since he was a puppy in Costa Rica, he has always been by my side and always loved me. I love him so much yet constantly curse myself for not being more patient with him. And yes, it is hard to travel with a dog internationally and I never planned for things to be this way. When I packed my/our bags for Sweden, I thought Sweden was the final destination so I didn't even consider travel plans beyond this country. Fortunately, though, it seems like many Airbnbs accept pets and they can ride on trains. Car (grr) rentals are always an option. Regardless, we are a team and we'll (I mean I'll) figure this out.
With that in mind, I will post here regarding any updates to our current situation. As they say in Sweden, "hej då" until we meet again.